Trying something new, like --- coloring my hair a LIGHT MOCHA color (:
If it doesn't work out, back to either light brown or black.
But we'll see.
Pictures to come! :D
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Thursday, September 24, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Don't Waste Your Time On Me.
This is absolutely ridiculous.
I have known you since Fall 2006. At that time, you were with someone. You kept telling me you weren't with her, yet I saw you two kiss every now and then. It's funny, when you asked how old I was, and you showed me your ID and we had the same birthday. The next day, she signs on your MySpace account and tries to start a fight with me, over you. Waste of my time. We only had one dance together, and it was our last. It's so hard to tell you, but we're not meant to be together. You are truly amazing, but of all the girls out there, of all people... What make me stick out the most in the crowd? Why me? You kept disappearing on me. I wouldn't hear from you every now and then, no calls, no text messages. When you came through, you expected me to give up the most valueable part of me to you in such a short amount of time. You lived an hour away. But you were willing to make it work. The problem was, I wasn't like that and it was too late.
Around the holidays, I had met someone. Someone who was willing to be patient with me. At that time, you would call and text me most often, telling me you're better than him. Telling me, he's going to hurt me and he's not as patient as he says he is. You wouldn't give up on me. But, you left me before without a word, and that's why I moved on. You put me in that position where I was "torn in between the two cuz I really wanted to be with you". Just thinking about it, I'm not the person to run back to the past. And you left me once before, how would I know that you won't do it again. I moved on, and wanted you to move on. Months went by, and you were still by my side waiting for me. You were there for me more than my own boyfriend at that time. My first dance competition since I lived in Colorado, he didn't even bother come, and surprisingly you showed up. You proved me wrong that day. He did hurt me and his patience with me didn't last. I didn't show it to you, but somehow you figured it out. Maybe cuz my friends were around and sympathizing me lol. It's okay. We started talking after that day, I remember. A couple months past and I think we were about to make it official, but again, you disappeared on me, again. So I didn't bother to stay around and wait for you.
My Senior Ball was right around the corner, and you were still nowhere to be found or heard. I was dateless, so I decided to ask my friend. It would've been different, if you came. But you were gone.
Graduation Day finally came, my best friend came through to see me walk, and still no word from you. Yes, I waited to hear from you for a while, and I was dating someone (unofficially). My dad was in Iraq, I didn't know what to do, I couldn't stay. So my mom called me and asked if I would like to live with her again. There was no turning back, I decided to leave California a couple days after my graduation. I was packing up all my stuff and recieved a missed call, it was you. So angry that were disappeared for so long, I didn't bother to call you back. The next day, loading my stuff in my friends truck, I got another missed call, it was you, again. I didn't bother to call back, especially when none of my friends liked you anymore, even if I did decide to call you back, knowing my friends, they would've taken my phone and hung it up before you even answered. We stopped by my friend Aron's first, to drop off some of my stuff and I'd be back to come pick it up later. Afterwards, we headed to the airport, you called again, and I ignored it. When we got to the airport, unloaded the truck, and said goodbyes, I was walking to the gate and you called again. I finally managed to answer without wanting to scream at you. You asked, "what are you doing?"
I replied, "I'm at the airport."
"Why?"
"I'm going to live with my mom in Las Vegas."
"Oh. Why are you gonna live with her?"
"Cuz I want to, and my stepmom doesn't want me here."
"You can live with me."
"Why would I want to live with you? You've been gone for how long.."
"I'm sorry."
"It's too late for apologies, I have to go."
"Can I come visit you?"
"No, I have to go. Bye."
I hung up the phone. You called back, but I didn't answer. I was about to board the plan and turned off my phone. When I got to Las Vegas, I got 2 voice messages from you. I deleted them before they were even finished. A month past by, I already got a new job, and met someone new, Jeremy. Our birthday past, and no calls or texts, I haven't heard from you since the airport. September 2007, Jeremy and I were already official. I received a call from a number I didn't recognize, when I answered it was you. You tried to apologize, but it was already too late. Hearing that I had met someone else, set you off. I remember you said, "if you want to be with a real man, hit me up." Then you hung up, I haven't heard from you since. I was furious and didn't want anything to do with you, so I deleted your number, text messages, everything.
A year passed, it was our birthday, July 20, 2008. You instant messaged me, saying "Happy Birthday to us, I miss you." I ignored you, it made me curious to know if you were with someone new, but I didn't let it bother me. Another year passed, July 2009. You instant messaged me, you said, "Hey remember me?"
"Yeah..." I replied back.
"Our birthday is coming up. What are you doin'?"
"I know, I'm excited. Chillin', what about you?"
"Oh I see, chillin'. What's your number?"
"(123-456-7890)" <- not my number LOL!
Then you out of the blue called me.. I was getting ready to leave to hangout with my girl Nickie. You apologized for everything, and said what was up. It got to talking about how it was when I lived in Cali, till now. You said you missed me and you want me to move back. Start over. But I've been with Jeremy for 2 years, I love him. I'm not the type of person to go back to the past. You tried to get in the middle of me and Jeremy. I live somewhere else now and I'm happy. I told you everything that was on my mind and that we should be friends, nothing more.. You said you understand, but you didn't want to be friends cuz it's hard for you, especially cuz you want me. I'm sorry things are the way they are now. You were the one who kept disappearing, while I waited. I'm done with it, I found someone who I've been with for over 2 years now and I'm happy and in love.
You called me today at midnight. Telling me you, your cousin and his friends are all driving down here from the bay. If you're driving down here to Vegas just to see me, it's not worth it. I'm not worth a 6 hour drive for you. If were friends, let it be. There's a someone for everyone. She's out there, I know she is. Please, don't waste your time on me..
I have known you since Fall 2006. At that time, you were with someone. You kept telling me you weren't with her, yet I saw you two kiss every now and then. It's funny, when you asked how old I was, and you showed me your ID and we had the same birthday. The next day, she signs on your MySpace account and tries to start a fight with me, over you. Waste of my time. We only had one dance together, and it was our last. It's so hard to tell you, but we're not meant to be together. You are truly amazing, but of all the girls out there, of all people... What make me stick out the most in the crowd? Why me? You kept disappearing on me. I wouldn't hear from you every now and then, no calls, no text messages. When you came through, you expected me to give up the most valueable part of me to you in such a short amount of time. You lived an hour away. But you were willing to make it work. The problem was, I wasn't like that and it was too late.
Around the holidays, I had met someone. Someone who was willing to be patient with me. At that time, you would call and text me most often, telling me you're better than him. Telling me, he's going to hurt me and he's not as patient as he says he is. You wouldn't give up on me. But, you left me before without a word, and that's why I moved on. You put me in that position where I was "torn in between the two cuz I really wanted to be with you". Just thinking about it, I'm not the person to run back to the past. And you left me once before, how would I know that you won't do it again. I moved on, and wanted you to move on. Months went by, and you were still by my side waiting for me. You were there for me more than my own boyfriend at that time. My first dance competition since I lived in Colorado, he didn't even bother come, and surprisingly you showed up. You proved me wrong that day. He did hurt me and his patience with me didn't last. I didn't show it to you, but somehow you figured it out. Maybe cuz my friends were around and sympathizing me lol. It's okay. We started talking after that day, I remember. A couple months past and I think we were about to make it official, but again, you disappeared on me, again. So I didn't bother to stay around and wait for you.
My Senior Ball was right around the corner, and you were still nowhere to be found or heard. I was dateless, so I decided to ask my friend. It would've been different, if you came. But you were gone.
Graduation Day finally came, my best friend came through to see me walk, and still no word from you. Yes, I waited to hear from you for a while, and I was dating someone (unofficially). My dad was in Iraq, I didn't know what to do, I couldn't stay. So my mom called me and asked if I would like to live with her again. There was no turning back, I decided to leave California a couple days after my graduation. I was packing up all my stuff and recieved a missed call, it was you. So angry that were disappeared for so long, I didn't bother to call you back. The next day, loading my stuff in my friends truck, I got another missed call, it was you, again. I didn't bother to call back, especially when none of my friends liked you anymore, even if I did decide to call you back, knowing my friends, they would've taken my phone and hung it up before you even answered. We stopped by my friend Aron's first, to drop off some of my stuff and I'd be back to come pick it up later. Afterwards, we headed to the airport, you called again, and I ignored it. When we got to the airport, unloaded the truck, and said goodbyes, I was walking to the gate and you called again. I finally managed to answer without wanting to scream at you. You asked, "what are you doing?"
I replied, "I'm at the airport."
"Why?"
"I'm going to live with my mom in Las Vegas."
"Oh. Why are you gonna live with her?"
"Cuz I want to, and my stepmom doesn't want me here."
"You can live with me."
"Why would I want to live with you? You've been gone for how long.."
"I'm sorry."
"It's too late for apologies, I have to go."
"Can I come visit you?"
"No, I have to go. Bye."
I hung up the phone. You called back, but I didn't answer. I was about to board the plan and turned off my phone. When I got to Las Vegas, I got 2 voice messages from you. I deleted them before they were even finished. A month past by, I already got a new job, and met someone new, Jeremy. Our birthday past, and no calls or texts, I haven't heard from you since the airport. September 2007, Jeremy and I were already official. I received a call from a number I didn't recognize, when I answered it was you. You tried to apologize, but it was already too late. Hearing that I had met someone else, set you off. I remember you said, "if you want to be with a real man, hit me up." Then you hung up, I haven't heard from you since. I was furious and didn't want anything to do with you, so I deleted your number, text messages, everything.
A year passed, it was our birthday, July 20, 2008. You instant messaged me, saying "Happy Birthday to us, I miss you." I ignored you, it made me curious to know if you were with someone new, but I didn't let it bother me. Another year passed, July 2009. You instant messaged me, you said, "Hey remember me?"
"Yeah..." I replied back.
"Our birthday is coming up. What are you doin'?"
"I know, I'm excited. Chillin', what about you?"
"Oh I see, chillin'. What's your number?"
"(123-456-7890)" <- not my number LOL!
Then you out of the blue called me.. I was getting ready to leave to hangout with my girl Nickie. You apologized for everything, and said what was up. It got to talking about how it was when I lived in Cali, till now. You said you missed me and you want me to move back. Start over. But I've been with Jeremy for 2 years, I love him. I'm not the type of person to go back to the past. You tried to get in the middle of me and Jeremy. I live somewhere else now and I'm happy. I told you everything that was on my mind and that we should be friends, nothing more.. You said you understand, but you didn't want to be friends cuz it's hard for you, especially cuz you want me. I'm sorry things are the way they are now. You were the one who kept disappearing, while I waited. I'm done with it, I found someone who I've been with for over 2 years now and I'm happy and in love.
You called me today at midnight. Telling me you, your cousin and his friends are all driving down here from the bay. If you're driving down here to Vegas just to see me, it's not worth it. I'm not worth a 6 hour drive for you. If were friends, let it be. There's a someone for everyone. She's out there, I know she is. Please, don't waste your time on me..
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