Sunday May 24, 2009
I was staying the weekend at my bubby's house, while I was getting ready for work, I heard my phone voicemail alarm go off, so on my way to work I check the message & it was my mom crying. She'd said my grandpa was rushed from the hospice to the hospital, & that he wasn't going to make it tonight. I called her back as soon as the message was over & it was my stepdad who answered & told me to call my bubby to pick me & take me to the hospital & to tell my boss to call him (my stepdad is my boss's boss), so he called him & my boss let me go. Bub drove back to my work to pick me up & we headed to my house so I can change out of my work uniform. After that, we headed down to the hospital. When we got there everything was fine for a little bit.... It, was just the sight of my grandpa that I couldn't help but want to cry the whole time, but bub was there to keep my head up. Some few minutes passed by & the nurse & doctor came in the room. The nurse started trying to comfort my grandma, & told us to say what we'd like to say to grandpa before it was too late. Throughout all the days of my life that I've spent with my grandma.. The moment she fell onto the chair next to my grandpa & just started hysterically crying --- my whole world went dark. My grandma said everything she wanted to tell my grandpa; the cutest things I've ever heard. An hour past, my stepdad broke the silence with jokes to make us all laugh, it was time to give grandpa a bath & everyone got hungry, so my mom, stepdad, grandma, bub & I, all went down the street to grab a bite to eat for 30 minutes then went back to the hospital. When we got back, my parents said that bub & I didn't have to stay, so I held my grandpa's hand, listened to my stepdad make jokes so my grandpa could wake up & so I could see him smile one last time, bub said what he wanted to say, then my grandpa held my hand tightly & I gave him a kiss on the forehead & told him I loved him, that he was my superhero & that we'll see eachother again soon, then kissed him on the forehead again. I let go of his hand, then tears started coming up on my eyes & we left. A couple hours later my mom & grandma were home, & then bub went to go break with the guys. Right after bub left, my stepdad came home & took my grandma back down to the hospital, & my mom was in her room.. 8:55 p.m. my mom got a call, open her room door crying & told me grandpa was gone... My mind went blank, I didn't even know what I was doing or where I was going. I walked into my room & fell onto my knees hysterical. Things weren't going to be the same. The house would always feel incomplete, empty.. Like a part of it is missing. I wouldn't hear the Filipino Channel anymore, or hear the karoke machine like how it should sound.. 'Cause it wouldn't be the same. Work won't be the same, because now everyone's going to look at my with sympathy & all that it will make me want to do is cry..
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I had to go back to work the next day... Bad idea. But I had no choice or else I'd lose my job. So one of my managers told me to check with human resources to give me a few bereavement days.. I really need it. But they let me go after 2 hours on the clock & bub came to pick me up & we went to his grandparents house for a barbeque. Afterwards, bub went to session with the guys, then came back to my house & we went to chinatown to eat sushi. Keeping my mind occupied is always helpful, but when your alone sorrow is like your new best friend. Even when you're thinking of the good times.
You'll always be my superhero. You'll always be my motivation, my inspiration, my hope. You're always in my prayers and forever in my heart. You'll always be my angel grandpa,
I miss you & I love you Lolo. Rest In Paradise. April 12, 1942 to May 24, 2009
